Friday, 13 November 2009

  • Tattoo

    I've been thinking that for my 18th birthday that I'd really want to get a tattoo.
    I wouldn't want something that everyone has. Tribal, Chinese writing etc. (although i love stars)

    But I want it to really mean something. To show that I've been through rough times (and still am) but everything will work out. I want it to be dedicated to my sister aswell. She's being so brave and I love her so much. She's really fighting a tough battle and I want the admiration I have of her to be inked onto my arm for others to see and and know, not for it to just be in my heart and mind.

    But the thing is that I wouldnt want like her face or name. It's something I dont really want to have. But like a picture or symbol to represent the pride I have for her and for it to almost say: ''Yeah, We've been through some tough sh*t in the past.... But we've come out smelling like roses :)''

    I want it to be kinda small, as it's a first one - less pain! Then I think as I'm older I'm going to get some more based on experiences and things that have touched my heart.

    Ideas?

     

Monday, 09 November 2009

  • Currently
    Bodies
    By Robbie Williams
    Bodies
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    Let The Right One In

    I've rencently finished reading a book by a (i think) Swedish Author (Translated, of course!) called Let The Right One In.

    This was one of the forst books I've read cover-to-cover since the Twilight Series- although I finished the Twilight series just before it became oh-so-annoyingly-popular  ....

    In my honest opinion.... It makes the twilight vampires look like (please excuse the language), well, pussies. What kind of vampire sparkles in the sunlight?!

    Anyway before I go off on a rant about Twilight....

    Let The Right One In.

    It's about a little boy called Oskar, who's an outsider and frequently bullied by peers at school. He lives on a housing estate with his Mother and occasionaly visits his father, who lives further afield. One evening he meets a girl named Eli. There's lots of thing about Eli that are mysterious and quite weird... She smells funny, She wears a thin t-shirt and leggings in the snow, and she talks like she's older than she is. She is older... She's around 200 years old... and a Vampire. A romance blossoms between Eli and Oskar.... It isn't a simple story line. Its quite dark, and in parts very graphic... (there's parts that actually made me feel quite sick)

    John Ajvide Lindqvist's book has been noted as '' a whiff of 'the new Stephen King'....'

    I highly recommend this book. It isn't The-New-Twilight. Far from it. It's too dark to even be compared.

    It has several main parts, viewpoints, and storylines...

    Oskar himself
    Lacke and Virginia - Alcoholics whom get tied up in Eli's vampiric character in a really tragic way.
    Hakan - Eli's carer, (or servant?) who has quite a disturbing past, and habits.
    Tommy - One of few people who are nice to Oskar, his mum's dating a cop who's investigating sick murders going on aroung the Blackberg area and surrounding towns.

    To be fair this is a dark book. I'll warn you now... But its well written and has a really amazing storyline on loyalties, friendship and rejection.

Tuesday, 08 September 2009

  • Currently
    The Better Life
    By 3 Doors Down
    Kryptonite
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    Inspiration

    Recently I've found my usually-bursting-fountain-of-inspiration-and-creativity to be running dry. Not helping the also increasing need to make decisions.

    I started back at school last Thursday, which so far has been okay...
    Although when decisions have to come into play I find I'm as much use as a chocolate fireguard.

    For my English Literature coursework, we're doing a theme called ''Texts In Time''
    This basically is anything, any type of theme, as long as there's an older text and a relatively new one. We have to cover three texts, which must be one poem, one prose, and one text from any genre.
    As what sometimes happens, I got amazing ideas, and books I can use, only to flick through them and feel shot down when the theme i wanted in it, isn't really a 'main' theme.

    I always didnt like such open coursework titles, but last year's I actually kind of liked, we where given two texts - Enduring Love - Ian McEwan and The Collector (Theatre Adaptation) and then told to compare and contrast the two texts, I chose the theme of Obessesion and how their obsession affects the way they think.
    I actually enjoyed writing it and got a good grade :) B

    But now I have no idea what to do, because I don't really want to use 'gothic or dark' texts as alot in my class have chosen similar themes.

    I'm too indecisive, I get one idea, look on the idea for the books or something, then get interested in something else. Damn short attention span

Wednesday, 26 August 2009

  • Seriously, that's just selfish!

    Two blogs in one day! It's what happens when no school and boredom mix, but I have found something to blog about, so I'll just roll with it, or blog with it.

    I've recently come across a true story in a magazine titled "My Sister's Annorexia Is Ruining My Life". The first sentence it says is 'I know loads of people think I'm really selfish but my sister's eating disorder is runing my life. Yup, my life.' Reading on it says how Caitlin thought that her sister, Claudia, was always a bit jealous of her. Claudia being shy and not having many friends, whereas, Caitlin being sporty and more popular. Claudia started to develop a eating disorder, leading to her parents to pay more attention to her. It mentioned how Claudia would pick at her food at the dinner table and her parents would talk about how she should eat properly, it then goes to explain how "we always used to talk about my next swimming competition and stuff, but no-one wanted to listen to what I had to say anymore. And  I couldn't help but thinking Claudia was secretly a little smug about how she was the favourite now..."

    That bit annoyed me. Why would someone develop a eating disorder because they wanted to become the favourite? From what I've read, eating disorders are developed when the person has become really self concious to what they look like, thinking they're fat, not that they want attention!

    Another part that annoyed me was where she said it was her birthday, and wanted to go to Pizza Hut, but Claudia didn't want to go, when she was finally convinced to go, her parents started fussing over her because she needed to have a proper main course. Caitlin thinks her sister was delibertaley out to spoil the whole thing, and said how "it was supposed to be my birthday, but no-one was paying attention to me! Once again, Claudia made it all about her..."

    I'm sorry but eating disorders are quite serious. and this Caitlin is whinging because she wasn't having her ego stroked while her sister has a quite serious problem! But, to be honest, if I read this a couple of weeks ago, I think I might have been able to sympathise on some level (but would still think she's being selfish)....

    Because barely a week ago, my younger sister was diagnosed with Acute lymphoblastic leukemia.
    It took quite a while to come to terms with things, but she's being treated and is at the Queen's Medical Centre now, I'm really glad that everything is being dealt with so quickly and I'm glad that she's able to laugh and joke about things. Things are really hectic, and it'll be a while before we can get into a routine, with my mum taking time off of work and staying with Laura all the time, and my dad going backwards and forwards from the Hospital, me and Eric have been at home, be getting the room sorted for Laura coming back, and to look after the dog, Molly.

    We have been to see her, in fact, we went over this evening. Because my mum has been over at the hospital since Laura went in, Mum thought that we might think she didnt want to see her (which is understandable, but completely wrong, we both understand how Laura needs someone with her) so she came over to spend the day with us, and Dad looked after Laura. It was nice seeing her properly after she freshened up and had a nap, and she said how she thought we felt she was neglecting us.

    I don't really mind if mum doesn't come over often, as long as Laura has someone with her, because she needs it the most. It's like my boyfriend is having a camping party, which I'm going to after work. I know that dad'll be dropping me off (unfortunatly there arent any direct buses that go by work) and if dad can't take me over to my boyfriend's then I'll just catch the bus (which I've done before if Mum and Dad where going out)

    The point is, if I'm making plans I know I'll have to look at bus times because of Mum and Dad, but I would never ever complain about what has happened or that I'm not getting enough attention, It's pathetic. And I really don't mind if I can't go places, because I know things are gonna be difficult and crazy until a routine is set. And I really can live with that, as long as she's getting better!

    So what's people's opinion on what Caitlin has said?

  • Irony

    It's a funny thing, I'm new to the whole Blogging thing, (aside from random bloggings on my Bebo pages and Myspace) and the idea was to blog about things that have happened recently (which to be fair alot has happened recently) but it's kinda personal, but i don't know how to go about blogging about it. Maybe once I've gotten to grips with blogging and talking about things that have happened, I'll blog about this. And maybe, I need to get to grips with what has happened, because to be completely honest, I don't think it's completely hit home for me yet.

    So I might aswell explain things about myself, like the basics or just random thing that pop up while writing this.

    My name is Marissa Hope, which in England is a bit of an unusual name but i love my name, it means alot, Hope is my middle name, as my parents tried for quite a while to have a baby, and thats basically why my middle name is Hope

    I live in a small-ish village near Nottinghamshire, I've lived there all my life, and so has my dad, and he's 50 in a couple of years! I live in a bungalow with My mum, dad, younger brother and sister, Eric (the brother) is 16 and Laura turned 13 in April. (god, this is starting to sound like the 'All About Me' presentation we had to do in my first year of secondary school!)

     

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